Well, unlike the title, my life's been, I've been, so empty these days (if not months)...
Of course, I was so happy to finally be graduated from uni. Nonetheless, it's totally not the kind of happiness following an achievement. It's a kind of feeling I got after doing my laundry when in fact, I hate it, I'm tired of it, I never do it well.
And here I am. Being in days of feeling so blank, not knowing what to do, doubts, recalling childhood's dreams. What adds more weight to it is obviously social media. People bragging about how productive they are, how much they earn at their first jobs, etc, etc. I know it's super toxic but I still don't have a plan to sign out anyway. My bad.
Sometimes I think I should start getting a career in the same field I took in uni unless I just want to make those 5,5 years wasted. Another day, I am sure it's not a problem to pursue a career in other fields as well as starting my own business. Every day having the cycle of those two thoughts make me very unproductive and I end up doing nothing. It leads to me being sad and empty.
So now, with the "Not-So-Empty" series, my goal is just to not add more days to those 5,5 years (it might be 6 by now) wasted of my life. I want to appreciate each of small activities I do and creations I make every single day. It's a commitment to write a diary for someone who can't organize any physical diary book. It's like keeping a track of where my money goes to. Hopefully, I can keep a track of what I use my time for.
Indeed, what you're reading now is today's creation.
xoxo,
Wardah
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